mar 2022 round-up
Apr. 1st, 2022 12:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mistydream💿 listening
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this month’s stats got very skewed because i accidentally left rtl on repeat while doing some chores, and also because i listen to a lot of youtube playlists instead of streaming spotify while i work. this is probably going to change when i start commuting to the office (yikes), but i guess it’ll help me make the best of spotify premium?
i quite like the new nct dream, which I realise might make me an exception… unfortunately i was born in the kwangya and therefore grew up on a steady diet of noise music, so i enjoyed the first half of the album. while dream has definitely veered closer into 127 territory this time, i think the vocal mix of haech + rj + chenle naturally lends a different colour to songs that might have otherwise gone to 127 (teddy bear could’ve easily fit on neozone).
📼 watching
cried while watching turning red because of who i am as a person. i CANNOT believe someone made a movie about me, a serial boyband fan with an overbearing mother that they are desperate to please. it also activated my core memory of sitting outside the indoor stadium listening to shinee rehearse while revising for o levels, because my mother wouldn’t let me buy tickets for shinee world i. incredibly, this movie made me thankful for being an adult. sure i’m Stressed and Depressed™, but at least i have disposable income!besides this, i mostly let the youtube algorithm take me to k-beauty youtube. i’ve always felt a bit embarrassed about not being able to do make-up - i’ve always wanted to try, but could never figure out where to start. i’ve managed to convince myself that the only way to get better at something is to start by Not Being Good At It, which lead me to buy my first cushion!! the downside is that i’ve ended up with an extensive list of skincare and makeup wants. while i’ve created a wishlist instead of adding everything to cart, i hope everyone keeps my wallet in their thoughts and prayers.
📚 reading
re-read a lot of comfort fic this month. no ragrets, because the month was tough and sometimes you just have to read about your emotional support k-pop boys fall in love across multiple universes to keep going.published fiction-wise, i’ve just started how it feels to float. i’m maybe about 10% way through, so i rly have no good thoughts on it yet.
💬 and other things
my habit tracker says march objectively wasn’t as bad as february, but it somehow felt worse. maybe it’s just the recency effect, or maybe it’s just the fact that i journaled just once this entire month. but man, feelings are just tiring to process. on the days i work past 8pm i don’t want to sit down and examine my emotions, and on the days i actually shut down my computer at a reasonable time (read before 7pm) i want to just watch some stupid videos on youtube. and this is the reason why i’m still procrastinating on calling up a therapist - i know it’s work, because i’ve been there. it’s an emotional extracurricular, and there’s a part of me that’s too tired (lazy?) to even entertain the thought. but i’m reaching the breaking point where keeping on this way seems like the worse option. maybe i’ll pull up my big girl pants in april, who knows.